E dream.. MA dreamz of wanting to go to Monash for dunno wen. the tot of goin der. a degree. e hat which i long wanna wear. e tot of seeing e wide smile on ma mum's face. e $$$$$$$$$$$$$. Mmmmmmmm
on e way to e bukit mera centre jus now, me was chattin wif one of ma fren bout Monash. Dunno how we got e topic started i also aint gt any idea on dat. e great part is dat i've a fren hu wants to go der. So e planning started like

• yrs of savings

3 yrs
4 yrs
5 yrs <- wen wanna get married??

• monthly contribution

$300
$400(no shopping + no public transport= walk everywer + stay home)
$500 (eat sand bcum bosnia kid odi)

• learn how to cook (if nt mus start eatin veges everydae)
• everyday party life (mus study!!)
• different guys bac on e bed (woah i wish)
• go der mus find part time job
• get super white guys der
• marry over der (no need ROM)
• to find kakis to join in our quest

** so i jus hope dis temporary planning gonna werk.. I hope ma fren doesnt run away aftr 3 yrs.

11:43 PM;

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i asked maself lotsa time..."lust" or jus tru "luv"?? Is 'him' e guy i wanna grow old wif?? Wads bout 'him' dat makez me too addicted to ?? Lookz??
aftr yrs, i still dun haf a definite ans..
Was it e way i was being treated or was it jus M-E again...

1:33 AM;

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Sumtimes... no point wishing n hoping for a change. Changes aint gonna happen at any pt of time. I wish aftr dat dae, things will b bac to wad we ar, wad we used to b like.
Happiness nt happening as 'him' is bac to e 'him' again. Quarrel over e same thing. Stupid dressing issue. Gosh how can one sae to e gf things like, "if ya wan mit me, u wear those open clothes." M i dat desperate to mit 'him'? ya act i do. I miss him terribly. Bt is dis wad i get? N im still wif him? Y am i stilll wif him aftr all dis? I wan a guy to respect me bt nt like dis. Damn it hurts me deep...

11:22 PM;

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Wad a dae to end...
First, no $$$
2nd, too much assignments to b done
3rd, bus conductor caught me
4th, no $$$$ again cos had to pay bus fare again
5th, dwld live msn n now my contacts all GONE!!!!


HOWWWWW????????

12:03 AM;

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"him"eventuali decided to make e move by lookin fer me yest. i receiv msg n nuisance callz. (to chec if im alive i guess)
Newae, eventuali i decided to msg him n ask him out... i mean mit... eventuali aftr like weeks n thanks to Kavi.... e msgs were being sent n replied. I jus hope i REALI get to REaLI tok stuffz out dis time round. .

11:20 PM;

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12:56 AM;

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i lurve e crocs. i lurve e color. n best of all i lurve u girls.......
wohooooooooo

11:37 PM;

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Ppl change so do places.. Wen Kota Tinggi aftr almost a decade... n woah.. now got chalet, got slides got those tubes like those at wild wild wet.. Hmmp nt bad. Gt a great natural way of massage frm e waterfall n den danga bay we went.. Almos hit a car der.. As usual ma reversin fren. Reverse so much din realis e car at e bac n HONKKKKKKKKK!! Gave us a fright.. But well, safe were we. Thank god.
Here i'm bac in ma room wif 3 pcks of ciggies. im gonna safe $30 dis mth n smoke like hell.. Wohoo

2:10 AM;

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Bloody manequin, no mascot, no wad do they call it.. e china statue or wad. those olden times thing wer ya learn bout e history of china las time. dat kinda like statue which look like those guards. e one at e cocoon at indochine.. Damn jus dun noe wad dat damn thing called. dat bloody thing is makin me awake till now.. Cant get a wink.. It kip on appearin on ma mind.. Den sumor e lightin kip on makin me imagine it as a spiderman.. Ha ha. mus b e alcohol..

dt place make me wonder bout e greatness of havin e male version of e concubines n me as e empress.. wohoo.. wonderful...

4:10 AM;

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Dayz of silence are killing me bit by bit. Ma faultt i shud sae bt wads e pt of holding on if it jus brings ya down.........
Wen it started how it started. it's jus e letter M-E...
E ME hu neva get satisfied hu neva feel contented hu neva feel thankful

7:45 PM;

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Wad if everythin u wanted everythin ya dream of ends aftr ur b'dae..
Wad if e laughter n e fights stop...............................

6:25 PM;

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