Monday, July 31, 2006
E dream.. MA dreamz of wanting to go to Monash for dunno wen. the tot of goin der. a degree. e hat which i long wanna wear. e tot of seeing e wide smile on ma mum's face. e $$$$$$$$$$$$$. Mmmmmmmm
on e way to e bukit mera centre jus now, me was chattin wif one of ma fren bout Monash. Dunno how we got e topic started i also aint gt any idea on dat. e great part is dat i've a fren hu wants to go der. So e planning started like
3 yrs
4 yrs
5 yrs <- wen wanna get married??
$300
$400(no shopping + no public transport= walk everywer + stay home)
$500 (eat sand bcum bosnia kid odi)
- learn how to cook (if nt mus start eatin veges everydae)
- everyday party life (mus study!!)
- different guys bac on e bed (woah i wish)
- go der mus find part time job
- get super white guys der
- marry over der (no need ROM)
- to find kakis to join in our quest
** so i jus hope dis temporary planning gonna werk.. I hope ma fren doesnt run away aftr 3 yrs.
fearOfADDiCTiON
11:43 PM;________________________________
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
i asked maself lotsa time..."lust" or jus tru "luv"?? Is 'him' e guy i wanna grow old wif?? Wads bout 'him' dat makez me too addicted to ?? Lookz??
aftr yrs, i still dun haf a definite ans..
Was it e way i was being treated or was it jus M-E again...
fearOfADDiCTiON
1:33 AM;________________________________
Saturday, July 22, 2006
Sumtimes... no point wishing n hoping for a change. Changes aint gonna happen at any pt of time. I wish aftr dat dae, things will b bac to wad we ar, wad we used to b like.
Happiness nt happening as 'him' is bac to e 'him' again. Quarrel over e same thing. Stupid dressing issue. Gosh how can one sae to e gf things like, "if ya wan mit me, u wear those open clothes." M i dat desperate to mit 'him'? ya act i do. I miss him terribly. Bt is dis wad i get? N im still wif him? Y am i stilll wif him aftr all dis? I wan a guy to respect me bt nt like dis. Damn it hurts me deep...
fearOfADDiCTiON
11:22 PM;________________________________
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Wad a dae to end...
First, no $$$
2nd, too much assignments to b done
3rd, bus conductor caught me
4th, no $$$$ again cos had to pay bus fare again
5th, dwld live msn n now my contacts all GONE!!!!
HOWWWWW????????
fearOfADDiCTiON
12:03 AM;________________________________
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
"him"eventuali decided to make e move by lookin fer me yest. i receiv msg n nuisance callz. (to chec if im alive i guess)
Newae, eventuali i decided to msg him n ask him out... i mean mit... eventuali aftr like weeks n thanks to Kavi.... e msgs were being sent n replied. I jus hope i REALI get to REaLI tok stuffz out dis time round. .
fearOfADDiCTiON
11:20 PM;________________________________
Monday, July 10, 2006
Y is it so difficult??
Every time I try to leave
Somethin keeps pullin me back, me back
Telling me I need u in my life
Every time I try to go
Somethin keeps tellin me that, me that
Everything gon be alright
Every time I try to leave
Something keeps pullin me back, me back
Telling me I need u in my life
It was meant to be,
You were meant for me,
So that means we gotta make it work
fearOfADDiCTiON
12:56 AM;________________________________
Saturday, July 08, 2006

i lurve e crocs. i lurve e color. n best of all i lurve u girls.......
wohooooooooo
fearOfADDiCTiON
11:37 PM;________________________________
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Ppl change so do places.. Wen Kota Tinggi aftr almost a decade... n woah.. now got chalet, got slides got those tubes like those at wild wild wet.. Hmmp nt bad. Gt a great natural way of massage frm e waterfall n den danga bay we went.. Almos hit a car der.. As usual ma reversin fren. Reverse so much din realis e car at e bac n HONKKKKKKKKK!! Gave us a fright.. But well, safe were we. Thank god.
Here i'm bac in ma room wif 3 pcks of ciggies. im gonna safe $30 dis mth n smoke like hell.. Wohoo
fearOfADDiCTiON
2:10 AM;________________________________
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Bloody manequin, no mascot, no wad do they call it.. e china statue or wad. those olden times thing wer ya learn bout e history of china las time. dat kinda like statue which look like those guards. e one at e cocoon at indochine.. Damn jus dun noe wad dat damn thing called. dat bloody thing is makin me awake till now.. Cant get a wink.. It kip on appearin on ma mind.. Den sumor e lightin kip on makin me imagine it as a spiderman.. Ha ha. mus b e alcohol..
dt place make me wonder bout e greatness of havin e male version of e concubines n me as e empress.. wohoo.. wonderful...
fearOfADDiCTiON
4:10 AM;________________________________
Sunday, July 02, 2006
Dayz of silence are killing me bit by bit. Ma faultt i shud sae bt wads e pt of holding on if it jus brings ya down.........
Wen it started how it started. it's jus e letter M-E...
E
ME hu neva get satisfied hu neva feel contented hu neva feel thankful
fearOfADDiCTiON
7:45 PM;________________________________
Saturday, July 01, 2006

Wad if everythin u wanted everythin ya dream of ends aftr ur b'dae..
Wad if e laughter n e fights stop...............................
fearOfADDiCTiON
6:25 PM;________________________________